Saturday, December 5, 2009
Blog Post #6: The ABC'S
Blog Post #5: ARTiculation
The Good
I believe that I was preciously created in God's image (Psalm 139:13, Genesis 1:27) and my ability to create things that are beautiful is a reflection of the Creator. He gave me talents and His Son's life as a gift, so I cannot (and will not) separate my artistic practices from gift-giving. I have been blessed to be a blessing and when I serve God, I feel the glory in it, knowing that it is much bigger than myself. While there is a lot of hype and prestige in the status of an artist, the abilities I possess are not my own, but rather I am a jar of clay reflecting the power of the Artist who has shaped me. In light of this, I've shifted my art practices from making art because of someone (school assignments, 'their' expectations) to making art for someone. Art is the only thing that allows me to love God and love on people. I experience more reward in bringing a smile to my friend's face when I put effort and care into making a gift for them, a warm heartedness that isn't possible by just exhibiting work in a gallery. See, a gift is a physical manifestation of a thought. It says "I care about you and made this as a token for you to keep". There is hardly anything more satisfying than affirming someone.
The Bad
My 20 years have been rampant with mistakes but I know that as a believer, "those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He glorified" (Romans 8:30), and "God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8). There is nothing I have done to deserve His love and there is nothing I can do for Him to love me more. I have experienced so much freedom in all of this, especially freedom to create art. The mistakes I made in the past have been justified and will be glorified by God. From them, my faith and the lessons I've learned, I've been able to produce art with amazing heart and such passion that I hope touches the hearts of people who spend time with it.
And The Ugly
I do not try to hide the imperfection in my finished works of art because I feel by doing so, I am not true to myself or the story I have to tell. Therefore, my art is a representation of my own humanity- I leave loose threads, torn pieces of paper, finger smudges, paint drips, etc to prove that this piece was made by my hand and I am, as the artist, always present in my work. I took time and energy to make something beautiful out of nothing. God loves and cares for me enough to spend time to make me into a beautiful creation.